As we speak, my computer has decided to wage war against me and is cultivating an army of problems. I don’t know if it is jealous of TheMister’s old computer’s early retirement or whether I’ve just been too hard on it, but the thing is revolting. I’d like to think this is a temporary work stoppage in order to gain bargaining power for a better contract, but I have a feeling the thing is quitting on me. If you notice an “i” missing from a word it’s not because I forgot–it’s because the damn “i” key is sticking.
First it was my ipod. The damn thing just stopped working randomly. I felt bad replacing it. I mean, the thing has been with me through law school and beyond. But it was failing fast and I couldn’t fit all of my music on it.
Then my car was hit. I’m not replacing it, but I’m cheating on Squishy with a 2007 Chevy Malibu (and somewhat enjoying it).
Now it’s the computer.
I’m beginning to wonder if I’m addicted to new things. In fact, I had a whole post dedicated to it. But I deleted it when I realized that it’s not me needing a fix of newness, but everything just falling to pieces around me. Usually I get a high off of new things, but lately I’m findng myself just moving on after each fix. This is the equivalent of an alcoholic losing his taste for booze. I have no desire to go to Target or Best Buy or even Borders. Maybe it’s partly because I haven’t had time. Maybe it’s because I’m in a philisophical slump deciding if this lawyering thing is what I want for the rest of my life. Either way, I’ve become numb to the newness. Hell, I haven’t even really used the new iPod after having loaded it.
Maybe I’ll take up drinking.
Or maybe I’ll just buy a new computer because I have to. Ugh.